The Cost of Sacrificing

Is sacrificing for the goodwill of other people a bad thing. To sacrifice health as well as time for those in dire need. Those who require someone to look up too, someone to provide a listening ear too, someone to provide company and fellowship. How much does it cost.

As much as i know i am overly committed in my commitments, how can one judge about my negligence in health as well as sleep. For a person who does not even know what his son does in School, Scouts and Church. I am very disappointed.

How much does it cost to sacrifice?

Being strangled in the demands of todays organizations and activities, i will be opting out of many things. Yes, my decision is final. My Chapter of Youth Music Ministry will end as of tonight. I would really love to give my appointment of Class Representative to someone else. I would be cutting down my visits to the Scout Troop limiting myself to once a week and probably other miscellaneous activities like hikes of camps.

Well, as much as i hate a life full of free time and gaps, i need to learn to channel it to the other areas which i neglected as well as my studies.

Sad, Slightly Depressed

20th Birthday

Thanks so much for this day Guys and Gals, without you guys, i would most likely be stoning at home while having shabu shabu. I would like to thank Sofaline (Sophia) , Boss (KaiChuan), Kitty Wan (Zun Kit), Dan (Daniel Chow), Ng (Daniel Ng), Doofus Dope (Seng Liang), Patty (Patricia), DiDi (Sandy Ong), Sex Machine (Trey) and Peanut (Min Zhong) for the Kite Flying experience, Dinner and Presents. Most enjoyable i would say.

I would like to thank Shaun and Stelene for having to go through the trouble to make the surprise possible. Thank you dear. Thanks for the birthday cake.

Thank you JC (Joanne Chia) for being there for me. Thank you Romeo (Remus) for your well wishes. Thank you Brothers and Sisters out there for those wonderful wishes. Will catch up with all of ya soon. Once i sort myself that is.

22 Feb.

A day where i mistakenly wore pink thinking it was a red long sleeve shirt. It was a traumatizing 2 hours experience.

A day where the joy, love and hope flow abundantly as i observe 134 Candidates getting confirmed in front of my very eyes. It took away my hurt and my sorrows. Thank God for them and may many blessings and gifts fall upon them.

May the seal of the Holy Spirit be upon you.
Amen!
Peace be with you.
And also with you.

1 More Day.

Update...

If i were to actually plot my current status of my life in a business context, it would most likely be either a recession, bearish market or even a correction period in terms of stock trading.

I just feel really moody. As much as i have great close friends around me, it does not seem to occur to me that i do have them around me when i am alone.

The ministry which i have actually made a contract with God would be breached very soon. I see my purpose in attending or for the matter serving fading away. There is new blood. People are getting in shape. Leaders are being molded. It's as though the very team that came in to assist in the supposed restructuring of the ministry is no longer needed. My personal feelings are that i still feel like i cannot really link well to my fellow brothers and sisters. The supposed lecturing sessions which i feel very uncomfortable seating through them. I apologise to my ministry in advance having cause this sudden sadness and decision to leave.

On a tasks to cut down on my commitments.

Untitiled ...

8 More Days.
I wonder what will i be doing.
No actual plans.

Got voted into Class Representative again.
Made a mistake in disseminating info.

UK Trip coming.
Caused problems for Mr. Boey.
Most probably having earlier presentation.

In a race to raise S$3,000 by this week.
Hmm..... IST members, need some help here!

Internship at CitiBank

It has ended. 42 working days over 9 weeks. There is no doubt that i have learn a lot as this is my first ever proper working experience. An office environment where daily dealings are very much the same.

I liked the last day of my internship very much as it felt like Valentine's day where presents and gifts are given. Thank you gifts and cards were given to everyone present in our department's huddle including Jol, Haley and Melissa.

Though it was the last day, it did not end the way i perceived it to be as we had to shift desktop computers to its holding room. It was enjoyable, sweaty yet weird. Why weird was because if your officially let off from a company, organisation or activity, you will find it strange to still go and help around.

The Citibankers from SP. Kee Kien, Myself, Alister, Sophia and Yiling.

Lunch at Mos Burger with Jol and Haley at the back. Hmm...

DBF3A01 Sophia, Kee Kien and Myself. Look at those big Smiles. Lol!

See what i mean by presents. It was more than this. Lets see there was another candy machine, a dolphin hand phone holder, and another small tolberone bar. Hmm, i used that thank you card you see at the corner. ^_^

One of the many beauties that i will not come across anytime soon.

Another Photo Update ...

My First Ever Pay Check... (Never Worked Before.)

My Second Pay Check...

The Chief of Genesis... Kenji

More Genesis Members. Joshua, Jonathan Heng and Eugene. Oh not forgetting Brandon

Easter Teens at Work....

Remus Team ...

My Team ...

Genesis ... Team ...

Genesis Close Up ^_^

Some Photo Update ....

At the Confirmation 1 Camp. This smart kids ....

Bryan, Romeo and Raymond.... * Darn the lighting*

Interns at CitiBank.... From left, Alister, Sophia, Yiling, myself and Kee Kien
*Pardon me for the lighting* Sigh...

Two post i would like to highlight.

Well, i was just snooping around hoping to get my dosage of what Maundy Thursday and Good Friday could mean for me. I got this two articles from a catholic blog.

St. Patrick arrived at the hill of Slane

St. Patrick arrived at the hill of Slane, at the opposite extremity of the valley from Tara, on Easter Eve, in that year the feast of the Annunciation, and on the summit of that hill kindled the Paschal fire.

The druids at once raised their voice. "O King", (they said) "live for ever; Patrick's fire, which has been lighted in defiance of the royal edict, will blaze for ever in this land unless it be this very night extinguished."

And Patrick said:

I bind unto myself today: The strong virtue of the Invocation of the Trinity: I believe the Trinity in the Unity, The Creator of the Universe.

I bind to myself today

The virtue of the Incarnation of Christ with His Baptism,

The virtue of His crucifixion with His burial,

The virtue of His Resurrection with His Ascension,

The virtue of His coming on the Judgement Day.

I bind to myself today

The virtue of the love of seraphim,

In the obedience of angels,

In the hope of resurrection unto reward,

In prayers of Patriarchs,

In predictions of Prophets,

In preaching of Apostles,

In faith of Confessors,

In purity of holy Virgins,

In deeds of righteous men.

I bind to myself today
The power of Heaven,
The light of the sun,
The brightness of the moon,
The splendour of fire,
The flashing of lightning,
The swiftness of wind,
The depth of sea,
The stability of earth,
The compactness of rocks.
I bind to myself todayGod's Power to guide me,
God's Might to uphold me,
God's Wisdom to teach me,
God's Eye to watch over me,
God's Ear to hear me,
God's Word to give me speech,
God's Hand to guide me,
God's Way to lie before me,
God's Shield to shelter me,
God's Host to secure me,
Against the snares of demons,
Against the seductions of vices,
Against the lusts of nature,
Against everyone who meditates injury to me,
Whether far or near,
Whether few or with many.
I invoke today all these virtues
Against every hostile merciless power
Which may assail my body and my soul,
Against the incantations of false prophets,
Against the black laws of heathenism,
Against the false laws of heresy,
Against the deceits of idolatry,
Against the spells of women, and smiths, and druids,
Against every knowledge that binds the soul of man.
Christ, protect me today
Against every poison, against burning,
Against drowning, against death-wound,
That I may receive abundant reward.

Christ with me, Christ before me, Christ behind me, Christ within me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me, Christ at my right, Christ at my left, Christ in the fort, Christ in the chariot seat, Christ in the poop deck,Christ in the heart of everyone who thinks of me, Christ in the mouth of everyone who speaks to me, Christ in every eye that sees me, Christ in every ear that hears me.

I bind to myself today
The strong virtue of an invocation of the Trinity.
I believe the Trinity in the Unity
The Creator of the Universe.
Amen.

mm, march 2007, theology of the body. "St. Patrick arrived at the hill of Slane"
[Internet Blog] http://vocatum.blogspot.com/2007_03_01_archive.html
Viewed on April 07

And

... it has become so glib in our depraved culture to consign murdered babies to their imagined repose in Heaven; somehow, then, abortion does not seem quite so terrible. But our presumptions can so easily become just that- complacent presumptions. We hope in God's mercy. But the souls of aborted infants are doused in Adam's sin, wherein no-one can look on the face of God. In our imaginations we must not resign these infants so easily to the presumptively immediate bliss of Heaven. Rather we should continually lift them up to God's grace in the wounds of the Crucified Savior.

"As regards children who have died without Baptism, the Church can only entrust them to the mercy of God, as she does in her funeral rites for them. Indeed, the great mercy of God who desires that all men should be saved, and Jesus’ tenderness toward children which caused him to say: "Let the children come to me, do not hinder them," allows us to hope that there is a way of salvation for children who have died without Baptism. All the more urgent is the Church’s call not to prevent little children coming to Christ through the gift of holy Baptism." -Catechism of the Catholic Church #1261.

mm, march 2007, theology of the body. "The soul of the aborted"
[Internet Blog] http://vocatum.blogspot.com/2007_03_01_archive.html
Viewed on April 07

I really feel that the first article is such a powerful prayer by St. Patrick. The prayer on its own recognises all of God's holy creations and identifies all the vices of this world. St. Patrick then later uses God's holy creation and of course the power of the Trinity to defend him from all the vices of this world. A beautiful prayer that would bless those who hear, see or speak of it.

The second would be abortion. I did not know that infants would still carry Adam's Original Sin. We can only pray for the mercy of such souls.

Sickly Holy Week

Yes, i am sick again. From my Doctor's perspective, it has been 6 months since my last consultation. Sheesh! My immunity is going down and that is terrible. Well, during this period of sickness, it has really pulled me away from the demands of my responsibilities as well obligations. Confirmation bash, Rover Investiture, Good Friday (Passion) and Holy Thursday Mass. Sigh ...

Well, I thank you for giving me this opportunity to rest. Though i may not be in the best of health to rest well, i still thank you and offer you my weaknesses.

Citibanker.....

Life in Citibank would surely enable its officers to stretch themselves. Especially when your talking about the Balcon (Balance Consolidation) CPP (Credit Payment Products). Its fun, challenging and allows creativity to flow as your in- charge of your own customer.

The decentralise system allows the banker to make his own decision for his customer. Be it extending a promotion, a free upgrade of existing credit cards, assisting in the upgrade process, allowing friends of existing customers to par-take in the promotion, to spend some time catching up with loyal customers, etc. The list goes on.

Given a choice, i will go back to Citibank. Just not to sure if i would wish to return to Balcon CPP. I have always wanted to go to Treasury. We shall see what the Lord has provided.

Hmm, Easter is coming and hope everyone enjoys the fruits and glory of this wonderful day and period.

Miss You RLS...